As narrated by Meez:
My phone vibrates next to me. I pause the movie I’m watching and pick it up.
1 new message from Dee.
My phone vibrates again.
2 new messages from Dee.
DEE: U awake?
DEE: obvs u’re awake
Grinning, I text her back.
ME: Shut up I’m slping and u’re disturbing
DEE: Ha ha so funny
ME: ‘sup why u’re awake
DEE: Bcoz I’m not asleep
ME: What an original comeback
DEE: I know, thanks *cry-laughing emoji*
ME: No, really now
DEE: Can’t sleep
DEE: You keep haunting my dreams
ME: As a prince you’re scared to fall in love with?
DEE: Haha is that what you’re dreaming because ‘In your dreeeaaammss!’
DEE: Lmaooo I’m so funny omg
ME: Smh (Shaking my head) Are u high on caffeine again?
DEE: Nope I’m Deeyanah
Oh dear Lord!
ME: I’m going to sleep bye
DEE: Don’t liiieee
DEE: U’re not going to sleep
DEE: U don’t ever sleep early
DEE: U stay awake and do haraam stuff
ME: U mean like talking to u?
She doesn’t reply immediately and I grin. Got’cha.
DEE: Daaaamn didn’t see that coming…
I text back lightheartedly, not wanting Dee to start with that 1 am ‘I need to change my life and become a better Muslim’ talk.
ME: Just reminding you who’s the real comeback king
DEE: U might be the comeback king, but I’m the comeback queen
ME: And what is a king without a queen, yeah yeah get over urself smh
DEE: U said it boyyyy
ME: Small girls like you should be asleep at this time of the night
DEE: It’s morning dumbass
DEE: And I am NOT small
ME: Well u’re very energetic considering it’s so early in the MORNING
ME: U are small
ME: Small small small
ME: U’re a smaaaalll little girl
DEE: And u’re a rude naaring idiot
ME: Aww someone’s getting annoyed now
DEE: Shut up go sleep
ME: GLADLY! I’ve been waiting for u to say that from the start of this convo
I go offline, ignoring my phone as it vibrates several times.
Not really in a mood to carry on watching the movie I had previously been watching, I shut down my laptop and get into bed.
Reading Dee’s messages from my notifications, I grin to myself.
DEE: Oh shut up stop lying to urself
DEE: Hey u’re really going
DEE: Come back
DEE: Omg I just realized that I told u to go and u went
DEE: U actually listened to me WOOOW
DEE: MEEEEZ stop being a prick
At least she’s clearly not angry with me.
But that’s only because she doesn’t know the full story, I realize, dismayed.
Her next message spikes my interest and I go back online.
DEE: Meez serious I have something to talk to u about
DEE: Oh so now u’re awake
ME: Deeyanah c’mon now
ME: Now what is it that u want to talk abwt?
And there we have it, ladies and gentleman – The real Deeyanah back again.
ME: Stop it
She goes offline and I sigh.
ME: Well if you don’t want to tell me whatever u need to can I tell u whatever I need to
She comes online again and replies a few seconds later.
DEE: Bcoz I already know what u gonna say
DEE: And I don’t want to hear it
ME: Well I’m going to tell u anyway
DEE: Or read it or whatever
ME: U need to stop blocking everyone out
DEE: Lol look who’s talking
DEE: But since u insist
DEE: I wanted to ask
DEE: U said that Dayyanah changed
DEE: How so?
Maybe I shouldn’t have said anything..
ME: Well she was wearing different clothes for one
DEE: Can we just have a serious conversation Meez
DEE: This is important okay
ME: We have to have this discussion face to face
DEE: It doesn’t matter
DEE: Just tell me here
ME: Pls go to sleep
ME: We’ll talk tmrw
I start typing after a few minutes again, knowing that I’m letting the A.M. me talk but not caring much of it.
ME: Listen to me Dee. It’s nothing nice okay. It’s not what you expect and I don’t want to tell you on here because then I won’t be there to help you take in the news. You’re going to hate me when I tell you the whole story and I’m sorry. I know I’ve messed up, I know I’m a shit friend and I know you don’t even need to know the full story to hate my guts but I’m going to tell it to u anyway. Not now, but when I’m ready to. Bcoz u deserve to know the truth. No one deserves to be lied to.
I wait for her reply..
But it doesn’t come.
As narrated by Dee:
I read Meez’s message.
Then, I read it again.
And again. And again.
But each time, only one sentence seems to make its way into my head.
‘No one deserves to be lied to.’
And each time I read it, only one person comes to mind.
My little brother..
Hey. Hi. Hello. Salaam. Bonjour. Salut. Ciao. Ahoj. Bog. Marhaba. Ola.
I hope you’ve had/are having a good day wherever in the world you and whatever in the world you are doing.
Just a friendly reminder, that yes, I know that ya’ll have many unanswered questions, many suspicions and many doubts [ WHICH YOU CAN TELL ME ABOUT IN THE COMMENT SECTION BTW 😉 ] , buuuut everything will be unfolded in due time Insha Allah. ‘Nother thing, I hope ya’ll are aware that a lot of things happening are haraam. Please don’t think it’s fun and cool and awesome and whatever you want to think it is, because it’s not. I’m only putting it in now to show the effects it has later, so please do bear with me. Annnnnd finally, (yeah, yeah I’m getting to the end) thanks so much for all the support and I hope you, you you you, the beautiful person reading this, will stay till the end of the journey.
❤ ❤ ❤